Can someone please tell me how I am supposed to say goodbye to my only son. My Noah. The only thing I have ever wanted in my life. I can’t do it. He is here now and this is torture. I can touch him, hear him… he’s Noah, just with no hair!! He can’t go! I have never excepted the word “no” or “can’t” in my life!!! You can cut the air in our house with a knife. Dennis and can’t even look at each other. We can’t grab him and hide him. We can fly to another country. We can’t protect him or save him. And we are still expected to be parents??? Disciplining, time outs…this is crazy!!! There is nothing we can do. My baby. He is so innocent and doesn’t deserve this. All he wants is to grow up and have a future. He wants to do karate and go to school … marry Dylan. He doesn’t understand and he’s too smart to ask. Now, every time he says something brilliant I want to scream!!!!! We were playing with wax tonight… pouring it … letting it cool and he looks at me and says “Mom that’s reversible change.” He and his mind are supposed to be here to make this world better!!! How are we supposed to do this? I completely understand that children are a gift, on loan from God… but the pain and torture is inconceivable!!! This is hell on earth… a living nightmare. And we have to keep a brave face for him. Dennis and I are dying.
Dear Lord please help us, we are weak and breaking. We need help. We need a cure.
Nan said,
August 12, 2010 @ 9:53 pm
Oh Dearest Amber…I just don’t even know how to comment on this. I am dying inside for you. It’s all SO unfair and I just don’t get it. How is a parent supposed to survive such an event??? I am sure you just want to freeze time. I cry for you and your “torture” at least once a day and release a flood everytime I read these posts. It’s simply unimaginable to a parent who has not walked this path. Possibly someone reading this tonight has lost a child and can better comment on how you get through this. Because, from the outside…I just don’t know how I would get through it. I don’t have a clue what to say to you. Certainly no child or parent deserves to go through this kind of torment. I know you are both dying inside and all I can say is try to be there for each other, behind closed doors. Release the tears and the emotions. You probably don’t have time for any counseling, but I think I would have to have that to get through it. I am SOOOOOOOOOO sorry you are living this nightmare. SOOOOOOO sorry Amber. Much love and continued prayers, call me anytime 863-899-5232…..Hugs, Nan
Carol Conaway said,
August 12, 2010 @ 9:57 pm
I knew you when you were a little girl, Amber. One of your Dad’s best friends was my husband, Mike, who died in 1985. My sons and I stayed with you and your family that Christmas because the only way I could cope with Christmas that year was to seek refuge with caring friends. I haven’t seen you since then, yet have followed events in your life through your parents. I have been following Noah’s story for several months now, and my prayers have been with Noah, your daughter and Dennis and you since. I have asked friends to pray for Noah. I wish I could provide answers and words of wisdom, and I can’t. Know that every day my thoughts and my prayers are with all of you.
Love, Carol Conaway
ambernoahsmom said,
August 12, 2010 @ 11:33 pm
Carol –
I think of you often. I remember the day Mike died. It was one of the few times I saw my parents cry. (Dad has never recovered; Mike’s picture is on his shelf.) I painted a picture of my Dad – I really liked it. He liked it too, but he told me that it was one of the saddest days of his life – at Mike’s funeral. You just rewound me to 1985. High school. Things were so much simpler then, and we thought they were so hard. I just thought the “hard” in my life was over. Growing up in the situation that I did, putting myself through school, working to death, building a life, losing a daughter at 6 months…I thought I was done. Dennis has lived the same life. We thought we were done done with “hard.” This is too much. BUT… I’m not giving up hope. (Even though I hate the the word “hope”.) I will not give up! I can’t… for my precious boy!
Natasha said,
August 12, 2010 @ 10:00 pm
I pray that god give you and Denis strength to deal with this HORRific Illness..We are here for you my friend and I know there is no words that can heal your pain..(I wish it existed).
Natasha Parris
LanceAround said,
August 12, 2010 @ 10:02 pm
It is torture and it’s unfair and Karin and I hold you and Dennis in our hearts and share your grief. We also hold Noah in our hearts and look forward to whatever healing and relief God has for him. Lance
miriam rockness said,
August 12, 2010 @ 10:05 pm
What to say? I don’t have words to adequately express our empathy for what you and your family are dealing with right now. I can only say that I have never seen such bravery as evidenced in both Noah and his parents from the very beginning of this ordeal. Noah is blessed to have parents who have structured an incredible day-by-day experience: loving him, engaging him, entertaining him. Making every day – no matter how painful – a day of expectation and yes, even joy. You have together researched, networked, challenged every possible source of help. You have made yourselves students of Noah and students of the terrible disease. Simply said, you have done everything in your power and with the help of God to do whatever you could do. Little comfort to you. Great inspiration to everyone who has been so privileged to be part of your life. You have brought Noah to life in all of our hearts. We feel we know this amazing kid. For now, just know that Dave and I are holding little Noah and his beloved family in our hearts and prayers. I know we join countless others in so doling. We love you. Miriam and Dave Rockness
Shirley said,
August 12, 2010 @ 10:27 pm
This breaks my heart. Your words touched me to the core. I don’t understand at all why this happens to precious children that are so innocent. They should not have to suffer through Chemo and other horrendous things. You are strong, look what you have been through already with your amazing Noah. I cannot even imagine what you have gone through. Just reading your words brings me to tears. I do believe in God and the power of prayer and I am praying with all my might for a miracle for Noah.
Jenna Caring said,
August 12, 2010 @ 10:56 pm
This breaks my heart. My first sentence (which I deleted) had the “F” word in it twice…I just don’t know what to say…nothing is right. Noah is so special…he has such a brilliant mind. I’ve never met another kid like him and I have known A LOT of kids. You are right, he is suppose to be here to make this world better, and he has! He always will. My insides are shaking, this scares me so much. That little boy doesn’t deserve this and you and Dennis don’t deserve to bear it. I am so sorry. Every part of me is sorry that you all are going through this. Love always to you, Dennis, Landin and of course to Jedi Noah.
Lorie Shewbridge said,
August 13, 2010 @ 1:03 am
Amber, I have no words to soothe you and Dennis. But please know that you are all in my heart and prayers.
I think of you every day and pray that some miracle comes soon. I was just talking to Bill about your precious little man when we saw the news today and the Star Wars V event at the Convention Center.
All my love to your whole family… PLEASE let me know if I can do ANYTHING for you.
Anne Marshall said,
August 13, 2010 @ 6:59 am
I can’t even imagine what you are going through! I know God is with you through every step but sometimes you don’t see or feel it. Just know that we at St. Pauls are keeping your entire family in prayer.
Love to all of you, Anne
Floriana @ Claudia said,
August 13, 2010 @ 7:15 am
I wish I had the right words, just know that I care
I can’t imagine what this is like for you.
We all need help at times like this, I am here and if I can help let me know
Noah and your family are in our thoughts and prayers everyday.
Hugs,
Floriana
“We must embrace pain and burn it as fuel for our journey.”- Kenji Miyazawa
BB said,
August 13, 2010 @ 7:43 am
I love you. I get it.
Susan McPherson said,
August 13, 2010 @ 7:45 am
Amber, I am a friend of Donna and Marc. Marc sent me this linc some time ago and I’ve been praying for Noah and for all of you. When Donna sent me news of Noah’s newest tumor, my heart broke. I’ve not posted a message before, but when I got your last post, I had to write.
Amber, I can’t pretend to understand the horror you’re living. But you need to know that God does. He knows exactly what you’re thinking and feeling because He lived exactly what you are living right now. He adored his son. He loved Jesus and was pleased with him (Matt. 3:117, 17:5), just the way you love and are pleased with Noah. God watched his son suffer an unthinkably horrible death. He knows every heartache you’re feeling and I’m convinced He’s feeling it with you now. You are not alone. He has not forgotten you.
The God who created stars and oceans and hummingbirds and human eyes adores your family. He loves you, Amber. He loves Dennis and he loves both of the children He has given you to care for. He watched His son die so that Jesus could be a substitute in the just punishment of your sin and mine. In your best moments of hope, Amber, and in your worst moments of fear and despair, know that there’s a Savior who loves you and a God who’s been where you are, who understands completely what you’re thinking and feeling. I pray you’ll know Him, Amber, in a real and personal way. No one can comfort you in the present and strengthen you for the future like He can. That relationship is yours for the asking. Even now.
When Noah steps into eternity, Amber–whether it’s tomorrow or 60 years from now–I pray that He will step into the loving and powerful arms of that God and Savior who loves Him. And, for whatever family he leaves behind–whether it’s you and Dennis and precious Landin or not–I pray that his death will have lost its sting in the hope of salvation from sin, a long life of joy and abundance in caring for those left behind, and an eternity with no death or mourning or crying or pain, where the Creator will personally wipe away every tear from our eyes. (Revelation 21:4.) That is your hope, Amber. Whether you find a cure or not, that is the only true hope there is. I pray you will know it.
God “tends his flock like a shepherd: He gathers the lambs in his arms and carries them close to his heart; he gently leads those that have young.” (Isa. 40:11) I pray that He will hold you close and gently lead you through every step of the coming days. I pray that God would gather Noah, Landin, Dennis and you in His arms and carry you all close to His heart. I ask that He will be your strength and your portion when your flesh and your heart fail (Ps.73:26) and that He will give you help (Ps. 121:1-2). I ask that he will remove the spirit of fear from you and replace it with power, with love, and with a sound mind. (II Tim. 1:7).
I will not stop praying, Amber.
Susan McPherson
Karen Simon said,
August 13, 2010 @ 7:52 am
Amber, Dennis, Noah and Landin – There are no words that are adequate. Please know that you are all in my thoughts every single day. Thank you for posting.
Wes Brown said,
August 13, 2010 @ 9:15 am
Hey guys.
I was so saddened to read this post this morning. I can’t imagine what you are going through. As other posters on this blog have mentioned, I don’t think anyone truly can unless they have been there. Although I realize there isn’t much I can say to heal your heart at this difficult time, I just want you to know how much we all love and care for you. No matter what happens,, you have mine, Shanon’s and everyone here at NthDegree’s love and support. Amber: You, Den, Noah and Lulu are all so special to us that we ache along with you at every bump in the road.
While I know that this is a terrible strain on your relationship and family, try to wrap yourselves up in each other’s care as much as possible. It will help give you the strength that you and little Noah will both need for the road ahead. You have both done an amazing job taking care of Noah so far and I have been filled with pride watching you step up to the plate. I consider myself lucky to be able to say that you are my friends and I’ll be there for you in whatever way you need me to be, no matter what.
Love,
Wes
Leann Steers said,
August 13, 2010 @ 9:58 am
You don’t know me and I don’t know you, but the Holy Spirit told me to tell you all that Jesus loves you all. He died for each of you and took not just all your sins, but all your pains, heartaches, and sicknesses on His own body. See this on Him. This is His love for you…..for Noah. Take communion with him. That little piece of cracker or bread is a picture of His body taking all diseases upon Himself. He has become the Bread of Life for Noah. See this on Noah.
I don’t know what else to say, except that my heart breaks for you all and no matter what happens with your precious Noah, he still wins. He still wins! and this is your hope. In Jesus, Leann Steers
Heather said,
August 13, 2010 @ 10:01 am
I’m in here crying at my desk. I can hear Will sniffing at his. I just can’t fathom what you’re feeling. I can’t fathom why this happens to innocent babies. Why? Why? Why? You’re right…it’s not fair. And it sucks. And I just don’t know what to say or do. I’m sad. I’m angry. And I imagine I’m not alone. Just hold onto that baby. Hold onto each other. Hold on for a miracle.
Love you all,
Heather
Lorin Bice said,
August 13, 2010 @ 10:01 am
My heart goes out to all of you in this immeasurable agony, so I will only suggest that you don’t need to say “goodbye”, only “see you soon”. May God grant you peace and comfort when none seems possible. Love, from my family to yours.
Chris said,
August 13, 2010 @ 12:19 pm
I cannot even begin to know the pain you are going through. I just know that it must be horrible and my heart breaks for you. I wish I had some answers for you. I am going to continue to claim God’s promise of healing and continue to pray every day for a miracle for Noah. I am in awe of his attitude and demeanor. He has been such a brave boy and he has touched so many lives. The only answer is to keep trusting in the Lord; hang onto Him for He is faithful.
I love you guys, Chris
Irene C Bryan said,
August 13, 2010 @ 1:16 pm
Amber I have know you since Nancy came to us at the USP. I have watched you grown into a strong, beautiful women with more talent then most. I have followed your strength with this struggle that no mother or father should have to endure. No human has the answer only questions – WHY! Hope is the only answer I know to share with you. Hope that God will heal Noah, Hope that if God takes him you will be the voice demanding a cure for this awful cancer, Hope that God will in the end be the one to answer your question.
If it were possible to help your carry this burden there is not a person reading your blog that would not do so. The whole Bryan family are praying for you and Noah
Kristy Sherrer said,
August 13, 2010 @ 1:20 pm
Amber,
You don’t know me but I met Becky Tucker through a friend several years ago and instantly clicked. Noah is the nephew of Becky’s daughter and son in law, whose names I do not even know. Becky and I became ‘prayer warriors’ and email buddies, which is how I came to know of precious Noah and the struggle you all are enduring. Reading this post felt like my heart was literally breaking, as a physical pain entered my body for you all and Noah. I do not have children yet and can’t even fathom what you guys are experiencing. I want you to know that my husband and I are praying for you all in Monterey, California. I won’t offer any “words of wisdom” because I can imagine that they just do not matter right now and you will be hearing enough of that already I’m sure. I pray that you all are given strength and peace to battle this pain and I continue to pray for a CURE,a MIRACLE, ANYTHING to allow Noah more time to be a beautiful little boy in this world.
Kristy Sherrer
suzanne said,
August 13, 2010 @ 1:24 pm
wishing I could do something- anything- that would lighten the load for you a bit. We love Noah, we are on our knees praying for all of you. We send you prayers and ask for miracles and pray that God’s grace pours down on all of you
-S-
Angela Crews said,
August 13, 2010 @ 2:41 pm
Amber,
I read this and cried and cried and cried. I know your family and friends are hurting and praying for you. You are an amazing mother, daughter, wife, friend, and person. Don’t ever let Satan cause you to second guess yourself. God used my hard times to draw me closer to Him. Hard times force us to our knees and we learn so much about ourselves and God. It is ok to feel tired, such sadness, pain, and desperation. Cancer has a way of doing that to you. You have your Heavenly Father and He has blessed you with the amazing support of your loving husband. Keep holding onto that support and to him.
I know what I experienced with my dad is different than what you’re experiencing with Noah, but I pray you will draw strength from my words.
I learned so much during the seven months I spent with my dad before he passed away. I listened. I hugged. I kissed. I talked. I prayed and prayed and prayed. Such sweetness came from making the most of the time we had together. Do exactly what you are doing-enjoy building with legos, playing with wax, talking, hugging, and listening. You will draw strength from these special little moments too. We serve a very BIG God. He is the Almighty, All Knowing, and Omnipotent. Keep trusting Him. Keep going to Him. Keep believing that HE IS IN CONTROL. HE IS IN CONTROL! Please know that you are not alone. God Bless You!
Your friend,
Angie
Ginger Johnson said,
August 13, 2010 @ 4:12 pm
Amber and Dennis,
I live in Oklahoma City and am acquainted with Becky Tucker, through my sister in Mobile, who has sent us updates on Noah. We are praying and will continue to storm the heavens with prayer on Noah’s behalf and just like the friends of the paralytic, through prayer, we will gently lower Noah into the healing arms of Christ and ask God to show us His glory in a miracle, as He sustains you day by day. Your faith is a beacon to all of us.
” Though He slay me, yet will I trust in Him” Job 13:15
“I accept in the darkness the burdenThou hast laid upon me; I take it unexplained. I come to Thee in the night; I accept Thee in Thy mean attire, in Thy unattractive raiment, in Thy repussive dress. I do not seek to comprehend Thee: I take Thee with Thy mystery. Though Thou slay me, yet will I trust” George Matheson
With love, Ginger and Bill Johnson
Brenda Appleton said,
August 13, 2010 @ 5:12 pm
Hit Weezer! I will not play Jobs wife. I understand.
Victoria said,
August 13, 2010 @ 5:48 pm
Hi, I’ve been reading your posts and am so sorry about Noah.
I lost my only birth daughter in 2001 from a botched open-heart surgery. We were with her when she bled to death. You can never say goodbye, just say “He is not in pain any longer.” When my daughter was alive, I told her “you don’t have to do this any longer” as every day was filled with horrific pain for her. As I stood there in the PICU (we lived in there for 6 months with her after the botched surgery) and watched her last moments as she was bleeding to death from sepsis, I was numb, totally numb. As I stood there crying my guts out as they tried to revive her, I never said goodbye, I just said to her “peapod”, as i called her, you are not going to be in pain any longer. To this day I have never said goodbye to my Kara and that was almost 11 years ago. I’m so sorry that you are losing your son. If you need to talk to me, please post and I will get my phone number to you. Love, Victoria
Christi hymel said,
August 13, 2010 @ 6:10 pm
Dear Amber,
Though I don’t know you and will probably never meet you in this life, I do want you to know that I will be praying for you and your family.
God’s greatest blessings to you.
Christi Hymel
Suzanne Clark said,
August 13, 2010 @ 6:53 pm
Amber and Dennis,
Speak your miracle, don’t let anyone talk you out of it. We will speak NOTHING but complete healing in Noah. “Speak those things that are not as though they were”! Pray Psalm 91 over Noah everyday and night.
Lauren L. said,
August 13, 2010 @ 7:07 pm
My husband and I have suffered the loss of one child and our other two children have chronic diseases. There is a book by Fr. Benedict Groeschel entitled Tears of God: Persevering in the Face of Great Sorrow or Catastrophe. I read this book 3 or 4 times a year, at least. It is a short book, only about 100 pgs – a very easy read (well not easy, but quick). It has consoled me when nothing else could. As parents dealing with sick children sometimes it is just survival mode, our prayers are pleas for help – let me take all of this from my child… there is nothing a parent wouldn’t give or do to save their child and take away the pain. I have been praying for your family – for a cure and for strength. God bless you all!
Christine Daly said,
August 13, 2010 @ 7:58 pm
Amber and Dennis, I will continue to pray and lift Noah up and hope, hope, HOPE!!!!! I am so sorry he is going through this and your family is in pain. You are an awesome mother!!!!! I am in awe of your strength.
Vanessa Young Russell said,
August 13, 2010 @ 11:39 pm
Dear Amber,
What can I say to comfort you and your family? I wish there were words to calm your spirit & soul tonight. Only God, the creator of all things truly understands where you are right now; so I turn to him. I will continue to intercede on your behalf — for peace; guidance; & healing. God allowed Noah to leave glory and come thru you and Dennis to this earth. For how long? I don’t know; but while he is here — right now — with you; enjoy each and every moment you have together. LOVE, LAUGH, LIVE & CRY; then LOVE, LAUGH & LIVE some more sweetie; as much as possible; as often as humanly possible with your son & family!!! We all love you; and our kids are interceding in prayer for yours….!!
Don Bush said,
August 14, 2010 @ 12:50 am
I have no words, but wanted you to know I am praying and believing for Noah’s complete healing and for strength and peace for you and your husband. May God Bless and Keep you in His Loving arms! Don
Cynthia Conn said,
August 14, 2010 @ 11:42 am
Amber and Dennis-
PLEASE TRY THE BLACK STUFF that Uncle Jim has. It can’t hurt, maybe it will help him.
PLEASE pay extra attention to Landin, she REALLY NEEDS YOU TWO NOW. I know that you will.
PLEASE TRY THE BLACK STUFF THAT JIM HAS< because it did help Isaac, until Amy quit giving it to him. That's what I would do if regular medicine and after all other avenues were used. Trying the Black Stuff, is another avenue that you haven't tried yet. PLEASE TRY IT !!!!!!!!!!
DON'T BLAME EACH OTHER !!!!!!! STAY STRONG TOGETHER !!!!!!!!!!
We are All PRAYING for all of you !!!!!!
Catherine said,
August 14, 2010 @ 2:05 pm
You were right in one of your past posts. Continue to look at the positive. Think about what cancer cant do to Noah. It cannot invade the soul. It cant suppress memories or kill friendship. Nor destroy peace. Cancer cant conquer the spirit or shatter hope. It cant cripple love or corrode faith. Most importantly, it cant silence courage or steal Noahs eternal life. I pray for sweet Noah every night before bed. I cant imagine all that he is going through. Yall are great parents! Look at how far yall have gotten so far! Be proud of that! He will get through this and shatter cancer. God bless yalls family! -Catherine
aplaceforthoughts said,
August 14, 2010 @ 8:43 pm
I don’t even have the right words but wanted to let you know that you all have my prayers.
Brenda Appleton said,
August 14, 2010 @ 9:02 pm
Children of God – Steven Curtis Chapman
“www.youtube.com”
Nadia said,
August 15, 2010 @ 5:49 pm
Dear Amber and Dennis,
Our son died of neuroblastoma and we didn’t say goodbye, just “so long” “we’ll see you again”. Nels’ cancer was very fast growing, so he didn’t have much time sick, just 9 months. We saw so many kids that lived a lot longer, who became shadows of their former selves with the treatments. We were so glad he could play on his last day of life and express what he wanted. The last days we forgot about what we wanted or what kind of pain we were in and just made it all about him. He was going, whatever our will was, and it was our job as parents to keep him happy, comfortable and with dignity to the end. Now it’s our job, as Nels’ parents, to keep him memory eternal and to nuture our own relationship with God so that we may all be united, whatever that might mean. We need to act in a way that continues to make him proud. His spirit continues to develop and deepen with God.
At first I didn’t realize that my prayer, “make him well” was answered. It is so clear to me now, after watching him leave, that he is not with that body, which succumbed to disease. He went somewhere, he is somewhere else. The amazing thing is that he still IS. Nels still exists. If I didn’t understand that Jesus conquered death by death, that there is no death, I understand it now. My son didn’t die, he went somewhere. He was there and then he wasn’t in his body anymore. I wouldn’t really understand this if I didn’t experience it.
Afterwards our priest really helped us by warning us that over 90% of parents who loose a child split up. Women grieve differently than men and each party resents the other for their style of grieving. I felt Mike was cold for wanting to work all the time and expressing little grief. He felt I was self-indulgent for staying in bed so much and crying so much. But we were prepared and when we felt resentful for the way the other was handling it we remembered that this feeling was meant to divide us and we gave each other enough slack to make it through. Part of continuing our marriage is to honor Nels and the best that he would wish for. Meeting the challenges help us grow in compassion and be closer to God.
Hold onto God’s strength, when you can’t stand it, He will carry you.
Marty Bear Piotrowski said,
August 19, 2010 @ 9:01 am
There are no words or answers for times like these. There is only GOD and FAITH and that is enough. Trust him dear ones and lean, lean, lean, on God, family and friends. I am here in Lake Wales and will continue in constant prayer for all of you and hugs for your dear parents here.
God Bless you all.
Carol said,
August 19, 2010 @ 12:11 pm
I am so sorry for your pain. as a mother of 3 grown children, and a grandmother of one 13 yr old, I feel your pain. Sandy Bard keeps me informed of Noah’s condition. She is my cousin. there or no words to comfort you from me, but I do rest on the fact that Jesus is your comforter as the Bible says. I pray you hang in there and believe that Jesus is right there with Noah and He will gently take him to be with Him in Heaven. He is there with you and your family also. I wish I knew why the innocent suffers and leaves us, but I know God has a reason for everything that happens to us. Please keep your eyes on Jesus and we will be praying for you and your family. Sincerely and with the Love of the Lord, Carol
margo markvoort said,
August 20, 2010 @ 3:05 pm
I am the mother of Julian Markvoort Beke who was in the same class as Noah. Please do not find me disrespectfull as I say the folowing but I know of a very fine man who has healed kids from cancer on more then one occasion and I just wanted to let you know about him. His name is Dr William Huang at 2905 Lakeview Drive, Fern park Fl 32730. Phone: 407-830-0068
You are in our thoughts every day as Julian keeps asking even though he got to know Noah for a very short . He remembers him very well.
Filled with Anguish said,
August 22, 2010 @ 11:22 pm
God I urge you on behalf of this family to perform a miracle for their precious son, Noah. God you are the only hope. Your all they’ve got. Please God show this family and all the many believers that have been touched by Noah that you are still in the miracle business. Please God I beg this of you. Lord my heart aches for this family. I know they have experienced so much pain and sorrow over the last year. Please Lord let them keep their precious son – cancer free.
Nan said,
August 26, 2010 @ 8:05 pm
Amber and Dennis…just wanted you all to know that I anxiously check Dennis’ tweets several times a day to keep up with these dark moments. We are all still praying so heavily for each of you!!! I hope the stemcell transfer goes well tomorrow. God bless this sweet baby boy whose body is in so much turmoil. I wish him comfort and peace, as I am praying for you all, as you walk this terrible walk. Thinking of you all so many times each day and wishing beyond belief for a miracle. Much Love!!!
Scott Cassidy's dad said,
September 22, 2010 @ 2:42 pm
Dear Amber and Dennis, we met at Shands in August. Our daughter Cassidy was also receiving her follow up MRI early that morning. We think of you both and your son constantly.
It wasn’t until this moment that I could find the courage to come check on your son’s progress. Your pain and suffering as a family are terrible. We pray for you and Dennis as parents, to have the strength to go another day and to love each other and offer some semblance of stability. Wilda and I are all to familiar with the inability to function, let alone be a healer, a parent, and a spouse.
Almighty God we adore you, we are amazed by your mastery over life and death. We ask that your will be done on Earth, and emplore you for healing miracles and surrender to you. Restore Noah to wholeness, let his healing be complete. May the knowledge you have imparted Dr. Smith and the medical staff come clearly and successfully. End this misery and let the wisdom remain. Restore family, happiness, and calm. Restore peace of mind. Great healing Jehova Raffa, we appeal to you, in Jesus name. Amen.
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